My whole life i’ve been sort of a recluse until i came across Sahaja Yoga. My story was always feeling shy in what I wanted to say or do and could never understand why that fear had settled in me. In Sahaja Yoga terminology, we can say I was a left sided person. I always wanted to have friends, live more openly and communicate more but that whole fear of what others would say to me or do to me would always eat me up and I would stop. As I became older this whole nature made me into an eccentric and self centered person who although would communicate but would keep herself always guarded. I continued like this for several years and with many tears, getting into depression and loneliness on many occasions.
Finally, the point came when I found a photograph of Shri Mataji Nirmala Devi on the net and started listening to her videos. As I listened to Her I could feel that inner voice in me saying yes…this is what I’ve been waiting for and go for it 🙂 Everytime I felt Her love in a way that a child full of innocence would feel from a Mother. I could feel my tears coming out in happiness everytime I saw Her speaking in Her talks and that feeling started filling me more and more. Slowly, I started seeing the change within me, I was a lot more open and confident as a person…not just that but a lot more dynamic in my work and had many more friends within the community of Sahaja Yoga and even outside of it. Basically, Life became a source of love and happiness as against being a burden that I considered it for many years. I could frankly and sensitively talk about things with people at work, home and with friends. They appreciated my honesty and could tell me clearly that something has happened. while some of the treatments in Sahaja Yoga may sound different or weird for a new comer but I can assure you that they work. whether it be footsoaking or using the candle treatment or even beating my shoe to get rid of obstacles they all helped me tremendously….many times I can tell that for new seekers these things are difficult to accept and practice but honestly they helped me and still do. Some people on the internet have viewed these as cult related activities but that is not true at all.
Just as in every religion there are some rituals (mostly nobody knows why those rituals are followed) in Sahaja Yoga as well there are these techniques using the elements to help us in our ascent. To understand and experience the nature and connection with God the kundalini must be awakened fully and these treatments help in that process tremendously. We have to leave behind our so called intellect to go through the experience but the approach is completely scientific if you can figure it out based on your situation and what works for specifically for you.
Anyways, I feel a lot more confident and happy now…that’s my story.
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