Pretty terrible things like philosophy and all this sort of intellectual seeking, getting completely lost and very damaged. I’d come back to London, I’d been out of London for a few years and I was feeling very unhappy, very depressed, quite unwell. I even took a day off work, I was feeling so depressed, I’d never done that before in my life. I’m sharing house with two other people and one of them said, I’ve seen this advertisement in the newspaper, Time Out, for this Indian lady who’s giving a talk in Caxton Hall. I said, I’m not going to anything like that, I’ve just been so damaged, no way. She went and that night when she came back I noticed she looked different. There was thought.. I’m not going. then, she went again and I was actually pretty very ..and I said, would you buy me some fruit on your way back from work and she said, okay, I’ll do that but I’m going to Caxton Hall so I’ll be back later. I said, that’s fine. She came in late in the evening and she gave me some grapes and I ate a grape and it was so alive, so sparkly, I began feeling better. I just felt it was tingling with life and vitality and I thought this is just what I need. I said, where did you get these grapes? She said, well, I bought them in the market but this Indian lady at Caxton gave me a lemon and I put it in the same bag as the grapes. Obviously, they were vibrated. So, the next visit, I went with her. I objected and she just said, I know I have to take you to see this lady, you just better come. So, I did. In those days, she would work on us individually. She’d come down from the stage and see each person and when she came to me, this flat mate was also there and said, could you help my friend, she has some problems and Shri Matji looked straight into me and she said where is your father? Where is your mother? I explained that my father had died and that my mother hadn’t spoken to me for some years for various reasons. Then she worked on me and I just felt the most amazing rush, an upward rush and then total silence and stillness. I can only say I felt that the weight of the whole world had been lifted from my shoulders. I couldn’t even speak until the next day. I had to go home in silence and just such inner excitement at this new state of awareness. Then she invited me around to her house a few days later and she said to me, you must write to your mother and I said, I’ve written to my mother but she didn’t answer. She said, just write to your mother. So I did and my mother answered by return of post, said come and see me and then from then on our relationship healed. Thank you very much.
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